Three times in the last year I have sought instruction from "professionals."
Each time I feel more torn down than built up. I go through a depression and don't want to draw because these teachers challenge my style . I fill with self doubt and hate myself.
I worked for three days on my first animation turn around. I am the first to admit that it was not perfect but it was a beginning. The teacher would not even watch the mp4 and immediately went in the PSD with the dreaded red "pencil."
In one of my meetups, I realized that all three pro art teachers were Men. Looking back even further, my male high school art teacher convinced me that I didn't have the chops for art school education. I don't want to be man hater. I have men in my life that I love very much, but if I am logical....my female art teachers have built me up and the male ones have crushed me. Hmmmm.
Part of my perfectionist recovery to stop seeking approval from the Art School patriarchy. I'm going to go forward with the Lynda Barry philosophy of "Making Comics" and not look back or UP. KvM